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How I overcame my addiction

Thursday, March 1st, 2018

Addiction will mentally destroy you, break you down and will do things that you don’t want to do.

There are many adults and kids who struggle with addiction. Babies can be born with Neonatal withdrawal – a syndrome of infants after birth, which can happen because the mother drinks too much alcohol. It’s sad to see the mom go so low to have their own child suffer because of their own addiction.

There are several forms of addiction, whether its gambling, drinking or smoking. When it comes down to getting help, they have structured themselves in a way that they are powerless against the addiction. Unless they get help, they have no power over themselves.

Let me tell you my tale of addiction.

It all started with one bad break up. Normally, I’m not the type of guy to do stupid stuff, and my dream is to be a psychologist. I am working on that, but let me take you back in time and tell you how I had an addiction.

My senior year at Hutchinson High School, I was in a bad relationship. We both were pretty toxic for each other, and honestly, loved one another, but that love turned into greed. With that being said, it all started because I simply wasn’t getting love returned, and she wasn’t allowed to be around me because of family issues. They didn’t think I was right for her, but she didn’t seem to care because she loved me regardless.

I feel that I wasn’t receiving love back, because she was afraid that someone may snitch on her for being around me. There would be days where she wouldn’t want to be around me, and my thoughts on the relationship changed.

I decided to check up on my ex-girlfriend, and yes, I know that’s a really bad thing to do, and I shouldn’t have done it. But I did, and I started to see how my ex was doing.

She had a bad life style, and I was like “Hey, I wonder how she’s doing today.”

Well, we started to talk, and then I found out she was using me because no other guy would love her. So not only did I cheat, I also lost the love of my life simply because I was greedy and thought I was in love.

I remember the date we broke up. It was Dec. 18, 2017 at 11:10 p.m.

Afterwards, I went to the bathroom and cried my eyes out and made a Facebook status that said, “Why am I so cruel?” A friend commented below saying, “No you’re not, Pablo.” Then I went to my next class and my left eye was more red than my right. One of my friends thought I was “high”, so I just played along with it even though I just got done crying.

Around last summer was when I started my drinking, I was getting money from my mom and friends, and I used it to have friends buy me alcohol. It went on until December.

There was a night where I said, “I’ve had enough” and just wanted to drink everything away. I tried, and I ended up laying on my friend’s bed passed out, literally dying of alcohol poisoning. They didn’t want to take me to the hospital, because they likely would have gotten in trouble and they had to force feed me crackers, help me drink water, and it took me a week to recover.

After I recovered, I decided I should stop.

Drinking took a toll over me because I spent over $400 on alcohol. I am currently sober and have been sober for three months and plan on staying like that for the rest of my life.

Pablo Sanchez